[That softness is met with the tightest grip. Practically dragging Trevor on top of him, holding him fast, refusing to let him have even an inch of escape. The gesture is not of terror or cold calculation. It is of the fiercest protection Alucard has ever felt compelled to express, because he can only say that this is going to be fixed so many times before it starts to sound like a hollow lie on his lips.
Trevor isn't allowed to move. Not until Alucard allows it. He know that there is going to be the worst self loathing in the pit of Trevor for this. It isn't allowed. He won't permit it. This is just how it goes, this is how vampirism begins, this is a natural thing and there is only mercy that Alucard is strong enough to endure all of it.
Carmilla's barely a thought right now. The horrible concoction does not prevent protection is not a cruel instinct.]
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Trevor isn't allowed to move. Not until Alucard allows it. He know that there is going to be the worst self loathing in the pit of Trevor for this. It isn't allowed. He won't permit it. This is just how it goes, this is how vampirism begins, this is a natural thing and there is only mercy that Alucard is strong enough to endure all of it.
Carmilla's barely a thought right now. The horrible concoction does not prevent protection is not a cruel instinct.]