It's not the easiest thing in the world to take note of, but he's made an effort not to touch there since the incident. It's happened before, because a lot of his recovery was spent in Alucard's arms and it's difficult to have someone's arms around you without the skin of those arms touching you. But he's not done it deliberately, and whenever he's been the one to accidentally make contact there, he's pulled away.
Fuck.
He brushes his thumb over it, over the blood vessel there (he can still remember it. Still picture it. Still feel it against his lips, if he lets himself.). And he's not sure he's ready to hear this. But he's absolutely fucking certain that he doesn't want Alucard to hold back when talking about it, because that would be so much worse. ]
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It's not the easiest thing in the world to take note of, but he's made an effort not to touch there since the incident. It's happened before, because a lot of his recovery was spent in Alucard's arms and it's difficult to have someone's arms around you without the skin of those arms touching you. But he's not done it deliberately, and whenever he's been the one to accidentally make contact there, he's pulled away.
Fuck.
He brushes his thumb over it, over the blood vessel there (he can still remember it. Still picture it. Still feel it against his lips, if he lets himself.). And he's not sure he's ready to hear this. But he's absolutely fucking certain that he doesn't want Alucard to hold back when talking about it, because that would be so much worse. ]
Tell me.