[He's confined. Confined twice over. He can't get out, he can't get out of the Hold, he can't break free from this place, find some way to alert his mother about this (she must still be alive in this scenario), rely on her instead of his father to find a way out. The panic is raw and wild because the trapped feeling is too familiar, too recent, too everything.
At some point, and not even Alucard can clock it, he slips into his wolf form. It lets him pace the upper part of the Hold with the faintest hope of an advantage here. This family's dog problem could be a blessing in disguise.
But no. He hears himself. He hears that clearness, and he knows what that means. Something very, very stupid is about to happen, and he'll either have to abide it or attack himself for it, in which case this nightmare shall be even worse.
Fuck. Fuck.
He whines, whines louder than he intended, and prays that much was unheard.]
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At some point, and not even Alucard can clock it, he slips into his wolf form. It lets him pace the upper part of the Hold with the faintest hope of an advantage here. This family's dog problem could be a blessing in disguise.
But no. He hears himself. He hears that clearness, and he knows what that means. Something very, very stupid is about to happen, and he'll either have to abide it or attack himself for it, in which case this nightmare shall be even worse.
Fuck. Fuck.
He whines, whines louder than he intended, and prays that much was unheard.]