[There's too many layers here. Alucard walks out as quickly as he can, out of the set of rooms entirely and into the hallway because he needs air. Everything they've ever done to try and prevent history from repeating, and here they are. They did it without knowing it.
That's the worst of it. Not knowing. Oh, it explained so much, but it set so many greater fears in Alucard's heart that he was ashamed for it. Becoming his father, that fear's always been there. But now it's deeper and uglier than ever before, and the mere idea of starting a 400 year cycle again makes him sick.
It also casts literally everything about yesterday in the stable in a new light, which is equally awful.]
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[There's too many layers here. Alucard walks out as quickly as he can, out of the set of rooms entirely and into the hallway because he needs air. Everything they've ever done to try and prevent history from repeating, and here they are. They did it without knowing it.
That's the worst of it. Not knowing. Oh, it explained so much, but it set so many greater fears in Alucard's heart that he was ashamed for it. Becoming his father, that fear's always been there. But now it's deeper and uglier than ever before, and the mere idea of starting a 400 year cycle again makes him sick.
It also casts literally everything about yesterday in the stable in a new light, which is equally awful.]