[ He can cling to that, at least. That he can do this on his own two feet, even if he needs support for it. He has to cling to that one thing.
(Being lifted into Alucard's arms is for happier times. If he lets him do that now, it's giving up on happier times ever coming to pass again, somehow.)
He reaches out to touch Alucard, trying to map him out, work out which parts are where. And he wants to wrap his arms around his shoulders, but he can't lift them that high. Not without the pain becoming unbearable. He settles for just leaning against his body, hands pressed against his chest. ]
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[ He can cling to that, at least. That he can do this on his own two feet, even if he needs support for it. He has to cling to that one thing.
(Being lifted into Alucard's arms is for happier times. If he lets him do that now, it's giving up on happier times ever coming to pass again, somehow.)
He reaches out to touch Alucard, trying to map him out, work out which parts are where. And he wants to wrap his arms around his shoulders, but he can't lift them that high. Not without the pain becoming unbearable. He settles for just leaning against his body, hands pressed against his chest. ]
Have to walk it. Just- I just need help.