[ It's stupid, really. One of the first real conversations that he had with Alucard was complaining about how loud he and his girlfriend were in bed. And now here he is balking at the idea of just sleeping next to them. But then it isn't any sort of shyness that's at work here. It's a keen idea of his place. He likes being on the periphery, or at least he doesn't dislike it. He likes being a distant second in importance to the both of them. On some level, he likes going back to his own bed and sleeping secure in the knowledge that to the both of them, he means less than the other.
Everything he was ever raised to do was sacrifice, why should love be any different?
The problem is, of course, that his instinct is to not do this. But then if they want him to stay, then not doing this is putting himself above the both of them. It's an unwinnable situation. ]
-let me get my pajamas, at least? Going to sweat myself to death next to her if I stay here in these clothes.
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[ It's stupid, really. One of the first real conversations that he had with Alucard was complaining about how loud he and his girlfriend were in bed. And now here he is balking at the idea of just sleeping next to them. But then it isn't any sort of shyness that's at work here. It's a keen idea of his place. He likes being on the periphery, or at least he doesn't dislike it. He likes being a distant second in importance to the both of them. On some level, he likes going back to his own bed and sleeping secure in the knowledge that to the both of them, he means less than the other.
Everything he was ever raised to do was sacrifice, why should love be any different?
The problem is, of course, that his instinct is to not do this. But then if they want him to stay, then not doing this is putting himself above the both of them. It's an unwinnable situation. ]
-let me get my pajamas, at least? Going to sweat myself to death next to her if I stay here in these clothes.