More responsibility than I deserve, that. You know I always fuck up things like this.
[ It still hurts. He’s still useless, his hands too unsteady to do anything worthwhile, head pounding and throat dry. He can’t quite keep track of where he is. When he is. But it’s nice. Arn’s already judged him and found him wanting. Already gone. There’s a freedom to it, talking to someone who can’t think any less of you, having something so broken that it can’t break further. He can talk and know that none of it matters. None of it’s even real, and even if it were it wouldn’t change anything.
He just talks. More freely than he has since coming here, is far less coherently. About Alucard and Sypha. About how terrifying the situation is. About boarding houses across europe. About the mud, and about weighing the indignity of shaving his head against not having to worry about getting lice from the other men. And about- ]
-She’s not written. I don’t know why she’s not written. To call me back home. To send the rest of the family here to help. Shit, not even to show us how the pups are growing.
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[ It still hurts. He’s still useless, his hands too unsteady to do anything worthwhile, head pounding and throat dry. He can’t quite keep track of where he is. When he is. But it’s nice. Arn’s already judged him and found him wanting. Already gone. There’s a freedom to it, talking to someone who can’t think any less of you, having something so broken that it can’t break further. He can talk and know that none of it matters. None of it’s even real, and even if it were it wouldn’t change anything.
He just talks. More freely than he has since coming here, is far less coherently. About Alucard and Sypha. About how terrifying the situation is. About boarding houses across europe. About the mud, and about weighing the indignity of shaving his head against not having to worry about getting lice from the other men. And about- ]
-She’s not written. I don’t know why she’s not written. To call me back home. To send the rest of the family here to help. Shit, not even to show us how the pups are growing.