[ It's like holding on to a doll. A thing, rather than a person. The coolness of Alucard's body hasn't really bothered him before, but now it only adds to the effect. It's-
-selfish of him. He got what he wanted. He got the effective leader this city needed. And now he wants something else. (Sypha accused him once of wanting Alucard to be more like a Belmont. She was more right than she knew. If he was stronger. If he was prepared for this. If he had the great family surrounding him and making sure that nobody was alone, then maybe this wouldn't be so terrible. But then he wouldn't be himself, and that would be a terrible thing of its own). ]
Adrian.
[ It's all he says, holding Alucard so tightly now what he's liable to bruise one of them if he holds any tighter. As if that should end it. As if giving him permission to stop being Alucard should be enough. Because he's a fucking fairy, and it's a true name. ]
no subject
-selfish of him. He got what he wanted. He got the effective leader this city needed. And now he wants something else. (Sypha accused him once of wanting Alucard to be more like a Belmont. She was more right than she knew. If he was stronger. If he was prepared for this. If he had the great family surrounding him and making sure that nobody was alone, then maybe this wouldn't be so terrible. But then he wouldn't be himself, and that would be a terrible thing of its own). ]
Adrian.
[ It's all he says, holding Alucard so tightly now what he's liable to bruise one of them if he holds any tighter. As if that should end it. As if giving him permission to stop being Alucard should be enough. Because he's a fucking fairy, and it's a true name. ]