[This is the first time the reality of what his father being gone means outside of the comfort of having someone else so hurt by loss that Alucard has truly experienced. The common law code of the city, it's unwritten. It's always been his father making decisions and the weight of his name ensuring all rules are followed.
It's an awful realization. One that sends him reeling in a way the horrible thing on his chest failed to do.]
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[This is the first time the reality of what his father being gone means outside of the comfort of having someone else so hurt by loss that Alucard has truly experienced. The common law code of the city, it's unwritten. It's always been his father making decisions and the weight of his name ensuring all rules are followed.
It's an awful realization. One that sends him reeling in a way the horrible thing on his chest failed to do.]
That...yes. That is the truth of it.
[He wants to collapse.]