[Alucard has not been rational since it happened. He is very much aware of the fact that he swings between either rage or a deep and horrible sadness that overwhelms him. When the worst of either extreme hits he excuses himself to the castle's basement and stays there until he gets either emotion out of his system. The room has claw marks on the wall, shattered furniture, and Alucard's own blood from him digging claws into palms too tightly.
When he emerges he can work. At the very least he can listen to Trevor and nod and then they go out to do more horrible leg work, running into another dead end. (Tonight it involves a dead Speaker and Alucard is so very mortified for it. He wants to lt her people know, ask what the proper rites are, do something, anything.)
He has said no word to the rest of the vampires he must lord over about this. It would unmake him in their eyes, for what is he now if not his father but even worse? A regent who can't even deal with a necromancer who takes one of his things.
All he can do right now is be directed. It is easier to trust Trevor to do the thinking, be the Belmont's monster. (Belmonster? No, that's silly.) So when Trevor says to keep his claws out, Alucard does so. Holds them flat against his own thighs, trying to stop them from shaking.
He fails. But Trevor is back, so he holds one hand out.]
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When he emerges he can work. At the very least he can listen to Trevor and nod and then they go out to do more horrible leg work, running into another dead end. (Tonight it involves a dead Speaker and Alucard is so very mortified for it. He wants to lt her people know, ask what the proper rites are, do something, anything.)
He has said no word to the rest of the vampires he must lord over about this. It would unmake him in their eyes, for what is he now if not his father but even worse? A regent who can't even deal with a necromancer who takes one of his things.
All he can do right now is be directed. It is easier to trust Trevor to do the thinking, be the Belmont's monster. (Belmonster? No, that's silly.) So when Trevor says to keep his claws out, Alucard does so. Holds them flat against his own thighs, trying to stop them from shaking.
He fails. But Trevor is back, so he holds one hand out.]
Will it give us anything new?