[ Talking about Sypha’s care is easy enough. They can both manage that. He thinks he might even be able to maintain a pleasant conversation in her presence. But without it- without it there’s nothing.
(Alucard is a monster. And that fact wouldn’t cut half so deep had he been a monster all along. As it is, he can’t just think about how it sounds when he (his boyfriend. Who he is supposed to love, somehow) hisses and bares teeth and extends claws. He has to think about how he could have done it all along. Could have been the monster this city needed from the start. How all of those lives didn’t matter enough.)
The peices of the gun are so small. So delicately, precisely crafted. They don’t look like part of something made to kill. ]
I need to wash the sheets again, after this. She started shaking again, while she was drinking her tea.
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[ Talking about Sypha’s care is easy enough. They can both manage that. He thinks he might even be able to maintain a pleasant conversation in her presence. But without it- without it there’s nothing.
(Alucard is a monster. And that fact wouldn’t cut half so deep had he been a monster all along. As it is, he can’t just think about how it sounds when he (his boyfriend. Who he is supposed to love, somehow) hisses and bares teeth and extends claws. He has to think about how he could have done it all along. Could have been the monster this city needed from the start. How all of those lives didn’t matter enough.)
The peices of the gun are so small. So delicately, precisely crafted. They don’t look like part of something made to kill. ]
I need to wash the sheets again, after this. She started shaking again, while she was drinking her tea.