Fine. Put words in your own, then. What is it that you want, if not that? I'm behaving myself. I'm pulling my weight as best I can until the fucking magic comes back. And I can't leave any other way. Actually can't. Her orders come before yours.

[ He chooses to see Disappointed. And so he doesn't care. How many people has he disappointed in his life? Why would Alucard matter more? ]

So if you want something other than that, spit it the fuck out. If not, deal with it a couple months until the situation resolves itself.