[Alucard breathes out, and that's the only noise he makes for what may be a few moments or an eternity. He isn't sure himself, because there's a wild part of him that just wants. Wants Trevor, and it screams at the part of Alucard that is still unsure of touch, unsure of safety, unsure of so much.
He very carefully lifts his hands, and they rest on either side of Trevor's face. Cup his cheeks with a delicacy that feels like it might fall away at any moment, and then he leans in to kiss Trevor.
Alucard doesn't expect the fierceness that ends up happening. It's wild and hungry and it lets that want rule for what may really be the first time it's ever been allowed to. It wants Trevor. Wants to keep kissing him, holding him there, and more than anything else it wants to explore.
He remembers this feeling and how he mistook it for compulsion. Alucard isn't sure his instinct was wrong.]
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He very carefully lifts his hands, and they rest on either side of Trevor's face. Cup his cheeks with a delicacy that feels like it might fall away at any moment, and then he leans in to kiss Trevor.
Alucard doesn't expect the fierceness that ends up happening. It's wild and hungry and it lets that want rule for what may really be the first time it's ever been allowed to. It wants Trevor. Wants to keep kissing him, holding him there, and more than anything else it wants to explore.
He remembers this feeling and how he mistook it for compulsion. Alucard isn't sure his instinct was wrong.]