No. No. If it’s gone, it’s gone. If I could glamour it back I’d just be having to make this decision every day.

[ He squeezes Alucard’s hand back, then turns to him. ]

I’m going to try. But- [ He’s always hyper aware that he is large and strong. He tries to regulate his emotions because of that, to avoid expressing things physically. But he’s not sure he can with this. He felt himself freeze when Chiros touched the scar before, and his rational mind had nothing to do with that. He really doesn’t want to hurt this doctor if he panics. ]-if I start acting weird, I need you to keep me still. You can do that, right?