[ Thirty. It's thirty. He has to stop on thirty. And he doesn't want to. He wants to keep going. He wants to be joined with Alucard like this forever. He wants to call this off, to let Leon do as he will, to be the only monster in a world of humans. He could keep them safe, like that. He could keep them safe and well-fed and dress them in silks and prick their fingers with jewelled pins and lick at the blood as it gathered into heavy little drops.
There's an uncomfortable tightness in the back of his head, and it takes him a moment to realise that Alucard is pulling his head away. It doesn't budge. Not under Alucard's power, and something twisted inside him reminds him that Alucard can't stop him. That there's nothing that can stop him from taking what he wants except for himself.
...And so he stops. Because that thought is terrifying enough to make him. He moves his head back, moving upright again. He lifts Alucard's arm, pulling it up above his heart to lessen the bleeding. ]
I- [ He begins, trying to gather himself, make it look like he hasn't thoroughly enjoyed the last half minute. ] -thanks. This'll make it easier.
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There's an uncomfortable tightness in the back of his head, and it takes him a moment to realise that Alucard is pulling his head away. It doesn't budge. Not under Alucard's power, and something twisted inside him reminds him that Alucard can't stop him. That there's nothing that can stop him from taking what he wants except for himself.
...And so he stops. Because that thought is terrifying enough to make him. He moves his head back, moving upright again. He lifts Alucard's arm, pulling it up above his heart to lessen the bleeding. ]
I- [ He begins, trying to gather himself, make it look like he hasn't thoroughly enjoyed the last half minute. ] -thanks. This'll make it easier.