[Alucard's not sure what reaction he might've expected. Some form of judgement, yes, that much he anticipated. So the follow ups that Gideon offers instead come with a muted disbelief. (He's still not looking in her direction. The rain's picked up now, gently tapping against the roof. There's worse ambiance out there.)]

Technically, it was me managing to murder him that they were interested in. They had lived in a vampire's court and wanted to learn how to fight other vampires to protect themselves and their people. That part-- [He sighs, swallowing down a lump that's since built up in his throat.] I understood that part. It's why I let them in and tried to help. They just thought I was keeping things from them.

[Which brings them both to the second question.] That should answer the other part as well. [There's a moment that Alucard closes his eyes, and a black, bitter attempt at a laugh bubbles out of him.] I have no idea how you thought I had my life together.