[What Alucard hears in all of his father's questions is an invitation to have a fight about this from another perspective. He's not terribly shocked that there's no recognition of what he did do (all three of them are here he thinks, so is there any value to this?), but there is a note of iritation at it.

But he still doesn't flinch, even with his father towering over him. There's only calm, there's only a steady breath.]

I sound rational about all of this now because it is a week behind me. [This is in fact a lie. He sounds rational because he's hardly had time to think it over in full, tease out the implications of actions, and because he's trying to put off the inevitable fight.] And it was not picking one or the other. It was knowing that what you both would demand of me would be opposite from each other, and trying to respect both of those desires.

Beyond all of that, there was still only one point: getting out with the both of us alive. Or at least with her alive. [Shit. Shouldn't have said that, but at least it's clear how very willing Alucard was to put all parts of himself on the line.] Everything else can come after.

[But the first question, that still needs addressing. But the honest answer, I've never had to control my anger like that before, and could have made a mistake that cost us both our lives and where would you be? doesn't get said. It's a near thing though.]

Their arts didn't deserve my time until after we were out of the city.