[This is a softer rage than Alucard expected to be greeted with. It isn't that he's unprepared for the questions being asked either, it's more a matter of the pitch and biting back the more flippant remarks that still try to surface.
It is also the first time that rage of this magnitude has been directed on him. All other things growing up, they were small infractions or just stupid choices that for what his father was, were met with fairly proporinate reactions. This boiled down to why didn't you murder everyone in the capital even though you've said it about five times already?
Gold eyes meet red ones. The first thing Alucard wants to reply with why should I care about responding to vermin in the first place? And why are you so interested in it yourself? should never, ever, ever be uttered.
His defense instead, such as it is, is no stronger. But there's a calmness to it, because it isn't a defense exactly. It's a statement of very simple fact.]
I am still half human. The threat does exist, and it might have cost my mother's life if I forgot that fact in all of this.
[The next part shouldn't be said, especially as there's more of an edge to it. Low simmering anger, but not his father's rage.]
Every time you have responded to insults, you have been able to take the time and plan down to details that most would never think to account for. I didn't even have twenty four hours. Beyond that, I have to consider the budget of energy I have available to me. If I had thrown myself wholly into it and then collapsed, what then? Neither one of us would be here.
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It is also the first time that rage of this magnitude has been directed on him. All other things growing up, they were small infractions or just stupid choices that for what his father was, were met with fairly proporinate reactions. This boiled down to why didn't you murder everyone in the capital even though you've said it about five times already?
Gold eyes meet red ones. The first thing Alucard wants to reply with why should I care about responding to vermin in the first place? And why are you so interested in it yourself? should never, ever, ever be uttered.
His defense instead, such as it is, is no stronger. But there's a calmness to it, because it isn't a defense exactly. It's a statement of very simple fact.]
I am still half human. The threat does exist, and it might have cost my mother's life if I forgot that fact in all of this.
[The next part shouldn't be said, especially as there's more of an edge to it. Low simmering anger, but not his father's rage.]
Every time you have responded to insults, you have been able to take the time and plan down to details that most would never think to account for. I didn't even have twenty four hours. Beyond that, I have to consider the budget of energy I have available to me. If I had thrown myself wholly into it and then collapsed, what then? Neither one of us would be here.