In any other situation, it would have been easier to do exactly that.
[Because this had been an extraordinary situation. Nothing any of them had thought to prepare for, because the happiness had seemed endless. A bubble, now utterly destroyed. There were only open wounds now, still bleeding. It would take more time for any kind of healing, and that was a sick irony considering his mother's profession.
Alucard closes his eyes, aware that his actions were a pendulum swung between both his natures in a way that simply had never happened before. The anger, that's inherited, as is the desire to minimize harm. In defending himself, the second one was always easier, but then again, the sense of danger had never felt that life threatening. A week ago? Those were the highest stakes of all both for his family and for the whole country. There was no good way to gauge how destroyed Wallachia would be if the execution was allowed to take place.
The only thing he can do is own what happened and to never be put in that situation again. There's a terrible reminder here too, that his mother will die before himself or his father, as humans do, and they will need some way to navigate the grief. He'll go after that, barring disaster, and then his father will be alone again with no restraints. Not the best thoughts to have in all of this. Alucard forces them aside as quickly as he's able, and lets out a soft sigh.]
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[Because this had been an extraordinary situation. Nothing any of them had thought to prepare for, because the happiness had seemed endless. A bubble, now utterly destroyed. There were only open wounds now, still bleeding. It would take more time for any kind of healing, and that was a sick irony considering his mother's profession.
Alucard closes his eyes, aware that his actions were a pendulum swung between both his natures in a way that simply had never happened before. The anger, that's inherited, as is the desire to minimize harm. In defending himself, the second one was always easier, but then again, the sense of danger had never felt that life threatening. A week ago? Those were the highest stakes of all both for his family and for the whole country. There was no good way to gauge how destroyed Wallachia would be if the execution was allowed to take place.
The only thing he can do is own what happened and to never be put in that situation again. There's a terrible reminder here too, that his mother will die before himself or his father, as humans do, and they will need some way to navigate the grief. He'll go after that, barring disaster, and then his father will be alone again with no restraints.
Not the best thoughts to have in all of this. Alucard forces them aside as quickly as he's able, and lets out a soft sigh.]