[ It's a little like being drunk, like a softer, warmer sort of drunk that makes other people's lives better instead of worse. And god, god, he should hate this after everything but he doesn't. He knows he's safe, safe to let his head be screwed up in a way that makes it a nice place to be, and that makes all the difference. ]
The- medicine. Right. Shit. The medicine.
[ But Alucard said 'please', and that returns him to himself abruptly. Reminds him that he can't let himself be fucked up right now, that it's not fair to Alucard. Even if none of this ever happens again, he has all the time in the world after this to try to find ways of getting back into that softer, warmer state. Right now, Alucard needs them both and he needs them aware and present. He pulls away, not even giving a last quick kiss before he does. ]
I'll- soon. Have it soon.
[ Please, castle, cooperate enough to let him get the medicine. ]
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The- medicine. Right. Shit. The medicine.
[ But Alucard said 'please', and that returns him to himself abruptly. Reminds him that he can't let himself be fucked up right now, that it's not fair to Alucard. Even if none of this ever happens again, he has all the time in the world after this to try to find ways of getting back into that softer, warmer state. Right now, Alucard needs them both and he needs them aware and present. He pulls away, not even giving a last quick kiss before he does. ]
I'll- soon. Have it soon.
[ Please, castle, cooperate enough to let him get the medicine. ]