[Alucard almost manages a joke about maybe just unbreaking the castle. It dies on his tongue, drowned by the far deeper feelings of sorrow that have bubbled up to the surface after being kept down for so long.
Spyha's grip doesn't even register with him. Doesn't hurt. It's just there.]
[ Even though she is a Speaker, Sypha knows that words aren't always enough. Though they're at an impasse for now, she plans on revisiting the topic later. Between the three of them, they'll figure it out. They have to.
Rather than keep talking, Sypha leans in and rests her forehead very gently against Alucard's lapel. ]
[It's the question of a total dumbfounded dhampir. Sypha has nothing to be sorry for. Neither does Trevor. That Sypha feels the need to say those two words Alucard wants to stare at her, revealing the bafflement.
But the rest of him is already trying to wrap around her. Arms coming to just hug her close, his height making it possible to only put his face down atop her head.]
For leaving the first time when you were hurting. We should have been there for you but we weren't. I'm sorry that you lost your parents, because I know how much that hurts.
[ Book still in hand, she wraps her arms around him as his long limbs engulf her. ]
I want to be here for you, and I know Trevor does too, even if he's a stubborn oaf about it.
[He clings. Really clings, grip on Sypha tightening but no tears coming. That feels like a small, fragile, pointless victory, but for Alucard it's important.
There's no letting go either.]
You had to go. I wouldn't have wanted you to see the utmost worst of it either, you both could've gotten hurt.
[Physically, but he might have lashed out and driven them both away for good.]
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Spyha's grip doesn't even register with him. Doesn't hurt. It's just there.]
If something happened, I'd never forgive myself.
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Rather than keep talking, Sypha leans in and rests her forehead very gently against Alucard's lapel. ]
I'm sorry.
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[It's the question of a total dumbfounded dhampir. Sypha has nothing to be sorry for. Neither does Trevor. That Sypha feels the need to say those two words Alucard wants to stare at her, revealing the bafflement.
But the rest of him is already trying to wrap around her. Arms coming to just hug her close, his height making it possible to only put his face down atop her head.]
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[ Book still in hand, she wraps her arms around him as his long limbs engulf her. ]
I want to be here for you, and I know Trevor does too, even if he's a stubborn oaf about it.
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There's no letting go either.]
You had to go. I wouldn't have wanted you to see the utmost worst of it either, you both could've gotten hurt.
[Physically, but he might have lashed out and driven them both away for good.]
S'fine. You're here now. [For now.]