Alucard shuts himself up. He just moves over to Trevor, takes Trevor's arms carefully, and guides him down onto the floor. Alucard's made a little blanket nest there with warm blankets and a few pillows, and it's proven to be comfy if he's a wolf or a man.]
[ He's been close to Alucard since that first night after the examination, but always for good reasons. Applying strange salves to injuries, measuring wings to try to understand how to make a shirt work. Never just- this.
It's nice. It's nice, but it makes him say stupid shit. ]
Got a question. Don't worry, not one about kissing.
[The proximity has never been a question. Alucard understands it. He's the one that got Trevor out of there, and he's the one that's with Trevor during the most awake hours he has.]
[ -this is difficult to ask, and he's not sure he even wants the answer. It's 'do you regret this' in the skin of another question, in part. But it's also something he needs to know. Alucard asked him if he was sure that he's want to bind himself to someone else so soon after the last set of bonds were broken.
He thinks he is, but he might need to hear this answer first. ]
-If you'd known who I was, would you still have taken me away from him?
[ He nods, and for a while he's silent. It's what he wanted to hear as is, but the lack of hesitation- that means a lot. THE FAIRY HAS DECIDED THAT HE IS MARRIED TO THIS VAMPIRE. ]
You don't have to call me your husband, if you don't want. Or do kissing. I don't mind.
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I won't hurt you or your family. I swear it. And-
[ He purses his lips, trying to think of something that might, might come close to convincing Dracula. ]
-if he has orders, I'll follow them. So long as you don't disagree with them.
Alucard tilts his head, much like a dog does. He's missed something. He's also tired. And while it's good that Trevor won't raise a hand against Dracula it's...]
Please wait before you say anything else about this.
[His voice is soft. Pleading.]
We're trying something. I can't tell you about it, but it might impact everything you just said and--
[God.
Words are hard.]
I'm sorry, can I just be not-human for a little bit?
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Forgot, sorry. Ignore what I just said.
[That should cancel out that order.]
Would you like a hand down?
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[ He presses his lips together, thinking. ]
-You didn't do anything wrong. It just- helps. To do what I'm told. Easier that way.
[ Another pause, and he holds his arms out. Yes, he would like a hand down. Actually using words to ask for help is just hard. ]
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[Want to be like that man. That's all.
Alucard shuts himself up. He just moves over to Trevor, takes Trevor's arms carefully, and guides him down onto the floor. Alucard's made a little blanket nest there with warm blankets and a few pillows, and it's proven to be comfy if he's a wolf or a man.]
There.
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It's nice. It's nice, but it makes him say stupid shit. ]
Got a question. Don't worry, not one about kissing.
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[The proximity has never been a question. Alucard understands it. He's the one that got Trevor out of there, and he's the one that's with Trevor during the most awake hours he has.]
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[ -this is difficult to ask, and he's not sure he even wants the answer. It's 'do you regret this' in the skin of another question, in part. But it's also something he needs to know. Alucard asked him if he was sure that he's want to bind himself to someone else so soon after the last set of bonds were broken.
He thinks he is, but he might need to hear this answer first. ]
-If you'd known who I was, would you still have taken me away from him?
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[That much is certain. There's no hesitation in the response, and Alucard's single word is all too firm.]
No one deserves that.
[And a Merchant like that? He could not be suffered to exist in his father's lands.]
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You don't have to call me your husband, if you don't want. Or do kissing. I don't mind.
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I won't hurt you or your family. I swear it. And-
[ He purses his lips, trying to think of something that might, might come close to convincing Dracula. ]
-if he has orders, I'll follow them. So long as you don't disagree with them.
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Alucard tilts his head, much like a dog does. He's missed something. He's also tired. And while it's good that Trevor won't raise a hand against Dracula it's...]
Please wait before you say anything else about this.
[His voice is soft. Pleading.]
We're trying something. I can't tell you about it, but it might impact everything you just said and--
[God.
Words are hard.]
I'm sorry, can I just be not-human for a little bit?