[Alucard lets himself be held. His long fingers curl and cling to the fabric of Trevor's shirt. Horrible muted sobs keep escaping in spite all his best efforts. Everything Trevor says sounds so good. So right. But how can it be?
It's horrible, the two parts of Alucard running in opposite directions. The part that says no, it'll still be a lie. The other that wants to believe and be held and cared for after all that's transpired.
[ It's easier, with Sypha. Most of the time, it's easy to bring her back to herself with the smallest things. Contact. Words. Food. Warmth. With Alucard- some of those things seem to be helping, but only by degrees. He wants to believe that there has to be some secret way to help that he just hasn't found yet, but at this point he's pretty sure he's too much of an idiot to find it.
He kisses Alucard again, this time with enough force behind it that it could actually be honestly described as a kiss, rather than just lips brushing against each other. Just once more. ]
[He doesn't kiss back. Not really. There's still fear there, about what it might mean to return a kiss. But Alucard doesn't shy away from the gesture either, and that in and of itself is massive progress.
He lets himself be kissed. Holds onto Trevor after that too, soft and limp and just too tired to do anything more. At some point he'll get up and return to the blanket fort, but here? Now?
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It's horrible, the two parts of Alucard running in opposite directions. The part that says no, it'll still be a lie. The other that wants to believe and be held and cared for after all that's transpired.
That part wins in the end.]
Please.
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He kisses Alucard again, this time with enough force behind it that it could actually be honestly described as a kiss, rather than just lips brushing against each other. Just once more. ]
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He lets himself be kissed. Holds onto Trevor after that too, soft and limp and just too tired to do anything more. At some point he'll get up and return to the blanket fort, but here? Now?
This is all he can ask for.]