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Do you want comfort or honesty?

[His voice is barely a whisper.]

[ Shaking his head, a hand covers his face. ]

I don't know. Just forget it.

Trevor, I don't have the answers to any of those questions. The way vampires work here are just different enough that I can't say either way.

[He places two hands on top of Trevor's ankles.]

But I will be here to help. And if it anchors you, then all the better.

[ Eyes slowly blink to the hands that rest atop his ankles and his own fingers curl tight. ]

I'm going to die either way, aren't I?

[ Because vampires aren't living creatures. ]

Yes.

[Alucard can't lie about that.]

And I will be there.

[ Everything is just a swirl of emotions and things that he doesn't really understand. Alucard's closeness and touch helps some, but the weight of this conversation is still crushing to him because his death is inevitable and no bond can spare him from it. And yet, a smile touches at his lips, sad as it is, head still bowed. ]

You know, when we first met, I honestly didn't care if you were going to kill me. I've never really cared that much. Not for a long time. No one ever gave a shit about me.

[ If he was going to die, then so be it. He'd already lost everything else and no one would mourn his death anyways. ]

But now I wonder if I'll even remember you or Sypha when I wake. Or if I'll be too bloodthirsty and lost in the mind of a monster to even recognize your face. That's what hurts the most, Alucard.

And preparing for eventualities doesn't help anyone emotionally.

[He knows that much. Alucard sighs, and he lifts one hand so he can put his hand against Trevor's neck. Feel his pulse, because his pulse is still there.]

We'll find out together Trevor. I can only promise that much.

[ Well, he has a point there. So, with a nod, he falls into Alucard a bit and just lets his head rest against the blond's shoulder. It's funny. Here he's never done much in the way of closeness with another and now, gentle and still clumsy as this right here is, it could very well mean nothing at all to him once he's completely turned. ]

Can I still chew on you?

My hair for tonight. We'll get you something better to chew on that isn't me tomorrow.

[Alucard sighs. Not flesh. Trevor's not ready for flesh at all.]

Ugh, fine.

[ With that, he drops himself back against the mattress and makes sure to pull Alucard down with him. ]

Probably don't taste good anyways.

No. I don't imagine I do.

[Alucard oofs softly as Trevor drags him down.

This is progress. Progress for them both. Talking like adults. Managing the awful things.]

Get some sleep, Belmont.

I'm turning into a bloody vampire. I'm not exactly sleepy, Alucard.

[ Yet he still lays there, arm somewhat draped around/across the blond. ]

But just sleep yourself. I'll... be here.

Humor me, at least, and try.

[Try and be human for as long as it can be managed.

Alucard sighs, saying nothing more. It had been a long evening even before Trevor crawled into bed beside him. Now? Now it has been exhaustive, and Alucard is happy to spend the night asleep.

He drifts off with little prompting. Five minutes hardly pass before he's asleep properly, turned on his side and pressing slightly closer to the Belmont.]

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