[It's a weird attempt to make light of an absolutely awful situation. One that just becomes worse as Trevor speaks, because Alucard cannot imagine what befell others who attempted to help.
He sighs, fiddling with his own hair.]
It's not a hardship. Well. [He won't lie.] For my father it is, but things seem to be more complicated than simple hatred with regards to your family. The rest is what we'd do for any patient. It isn't suffering. It doesn't demand repayment.
[As for that last part, Alucard just blinks for a moment.]
...do you actually think that'd be a better idea with regards to my father?
[ He tilts his head, questioning. With Dracula involved, there are a lot of ways that sentence could end that he probably wouldn't like.
But fortunately, that question is the ultimate distraction. Trevor has, in truth, had basically no dalliances. There was nobody, before the incomplete rebirth. The speaker girl who tried to save him before was pretty, and she said that he could travel with her and be part of her family (that's a marriage proposal, right????) but she traded away her memory of him for her grandfather's safety. He nods. ]
[ The questioning gaze continues a little longer, but in truth the other topic of conversation is probably more important. He knows better than to go poking his nose into Dracula's business.
It still feels unnatural, the way he feels the corners of his lips tugging upward. It's been difficult to be happy, to be anything more positive than grateful, for the last week. But he can see the colour rising to Alucard's cheeks, and- there was a part of him that could do things other than hurt, once. He's starting to remember it. ]
You should start. I'll show you how.
[ Unfortunately that part of him mostly acts like a little shit. He puts the knitting aside and while he doesn't move closer to Alucard he leans forward, hands pressed against the bed so that he can push himself to his feet if he needs to. ]
[Logically, Alucard knows that this is a terrible idea. His father alone makes this an absolutely awful idea from every angle, because a Belmont smooching his son? No. Absolutely not.
Part of him wants to say yes as a matter of putting things to rights for Trevor, just a little. He deserves things better than those awful four years, but isn't kissing out of pity an insult too? Probably.
He doesn't make noise as he tries to stall, just absently scratches at his beard.
When the hell did he grow a beard?]
I....haven't shaved in a week. I think I haven't bathed in a week either.
[ His shoulders sink just a little. Oh well. It's hard not to be a little disappointed, but that's all. Asking was the important part, the part where he got to assert who he is. Everything else is secondary.
But he does move closer, standing and limping toward Alucard. To get a better look at the offending beard, and also to smell him. ]
You smell nice. Like human. [ He says, as if that's a normal thing that people say. As for the beard-
-he brings a hand up to his own chin, rubbing at the stubble there. He's pretty sure he hasn't shaved in his life. Huh. ]
Humans smell like work. Sometimes. Vampires never do.
[ Which is bout the only way of saying YOU SMELL LIKE SWEAT and making it seem like a compliment. When Alucard gets up, he stops. Both to demonstrate that he isn't moving closer to force the kissing issue and because he's been given an instruction. ]
Alucard shuts himself up. He just moves over to Trevor, takes Trevor's arms carefully, and guides him down onto the floor. Alucard's made a little blanket nest there with warm blankets and a few pillows, and it's proven to be comfy if he's a wolf or a man.]
[ He's been close to Alucard since that first night after the examination, but always for good reasons. Applying strange salves to injuries, measuring wings to try to understand how to make a shirt work. Never just- this.
It's nice. It's nice, but it makes him say stupid shit. ]
Got a question. Don't worry, not one about kissing.
[The proximity has never been a question. Alucard understands it. He's the one that got Trevor out of there, and he's the one that's with Trevor during the most awake hours he has.]
[ -this is difficult to ask, and he's not sure he even wants the answer. It's 'do you regret this' in the skin of another question, in part. But it's also something he needs to know. Alucard asked him if he was sure that he's want to bind himself to someone else so soon after the last set of bonds were broken.
He thinks he is, but he might need to hear this answer first. ]
-If you'd known who I was, would you still have taken me away from him?
[ He nods, and for a while he's silent. It's what he wanted to hear as is, but the lack of hesitation- that means a lot. THE FAIRY HAS DECIDED THAT HE IS MARRIED TO THIS VAMPIRE. ]
You don't have to call me your husband, if you don't want. Or do kissing. I don't mind.
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I won't hurt you or your family. I swear it. And-
[ He purses his lips, trying to think of something that might, might come close to convincing Dracula. ]
-if he has orders, I'll follow them. So long as you don't disagree with them.
Alucard tilts his head, much like a dog does. He's missed something. He's also tired. And while it's good that Trevor won't raise a hand against Dracula it's...]
Please wait before you say anything else about this.
[His voice is soft. Pleading.]
We're trying something. I can't tell you about it, but it might impact everything you just said and--
[God.
Words are hard.]
I'm sorry, can I just be not-human for a little bit?
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[It's a weird attempt to make light of an absolutely awful situation. One that just becomes worse as Trevor speaks, because Alucard cannot imagine what befell others who attempted to help.
He sighs, fiddling with his own hair.]
It's not a hardship. Well. [He won't lie.] For my father it is, but things seem to be more complicated than simple hatred with regards to your family. The rest is what we'd do for any patient. It isn't suffering. It doesn't demand repayment.
[As for that last part, Alucard just blinks for a moment.]
...do you actually think that'd be a better idea with regards to my father?
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[ He gives it exactly four seconds thought, though, and- yeah, maybe not the kissing part. ]
-I wouldn’t have to kiss you, if you don’t want me to.
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[Nope. Can't tell the Belmont about the plan to fuck off down to Hell. Mom doesn't even know yet.
Easier to focus on literally anything else but that.]
I...wait, you really want to?
[Forgive him, Trevor, he's only had a few passing dalliances.]
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[ He tilts his head, questioning. With Dracula involved, there are a lot of ways that sentence could end that he probably wouldn't like.
But fortunately, that question is the ultimate distraction. Trevor has, in truth, had basically no dalliances. There was nobody, before the incomplete rebirth. The speaker girl who tried to save him before was pretty, and she said that he could travel with her and be part of her family (that's a marriage proposal, right????) but she traded away her memory of him for her grandfather's safety. He nods. ]
...have you ever met anyone who didn't?
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[It would be cruel to talk about the plan in case it fails. Hos father already has so many emotionsvrunning high sbout it, Alucard won't add mote.
There is a tinge to Alucard's cherks. He has attempted a romance once or twice, but little has come of it.]
I cant say i ask people that question.
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It still feels unnatural, the way he feels the corners of his lips tugging upward. It's been difficult to be happy, to be anything more positive than grateful, for the last week. But he can see the colour rising to Alucard's cheeks, and- there was a part of him that could do things other than hurt, once. He's starting to remember it. ]
You should start. I'll show you how.
[ Unfortunately that part of him mostly acts like a little shit. He puts the knitting aside and while he doesn't move closer to Alucard he leans forward, hands pressed against the bed so that he can push himself to his feet if he needs to. ]
Do you want me to kiss you?
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Part of him wants to say yes as a matter of putting things to rights for Trevor, just a little. He deserves things better than those awful four years, but isn't kissing out of pity an insult too? Probably.
He doesn't make noise as he tries to stall, just absently scratches at his beard.
When the hell did he grow a beard?]
I....haven't shaved in a week. I think I haven't bathed in a week either.
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But he does move closer, standing and limping toward Alucard. To get a better look at the offending beard, and also to smell him. ]
You smell nice. Like human. [ He says, as if that's a normal thing that people say. As for the beard-
-he brings a hand up to his own chin, rubbing at the stubble there. He's pretty sure he hasn't shaved in his life. Huh. ]
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[That's a surprise, one that actually rouses Alucard to look up and not just be a blushing mess. Thet's a head tilt, and he slowly starts to get up--]
Here, let me at least help you down.
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[ Which is bout the only way of saying YOU SMELL LIKE SWEAT and making it seem like a compliment. When Alucard gets up, he stops. Both to demonstrate that he isn't moving closer to force the kissing issue and because he's been given an instruction. ]
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Forgot, sorry. Ignore what I just said.
[That should cancel out that order.]
Would you like a hand down?
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[ He presses his lips together, thinking. ]
-You didn't do anything wrong. It just- helps. To do what I'm told. Easier that way.
[ Another pause, and he holds his arms out. Yes, he would like a hand down. Actually using words to ask for help is just hard. ]
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[Want to be like that man. That's all.
Alucard shuts himself up. He just moves over to Trevor, takes Trevor's arms carefully, and guides him down onto the floor. Alucard's made a little blanket nest there with warm blankets and a few pillows, and it's proven to be comfy if he's a wolf or a man.]
There.
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It's nice. It's nice, but it makes him say stupid shit. ]
Got a question. Don't worry, not one about kissing.
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[The proximity has never been a question. Alucard understands it. He's the one that got Trevor out of there, and he's the one that's with Trevor during the most awake hours he has.]
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[ -this is difficult to ask, and he's not sure he even wants the answer. It's 'do you regret this' in the skin of another question, in part. But it's also something he needs to know. Alucard asked him if he was sure that he's want to bind himself to someone else so soon after the last set of bonds were broken.
He thinks he is, but he might need to hear this answer first. ]
-If you'd known who I was, would you still have taken me away from him?
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[That much is certain. There's no hesitation in the response, and Alucard's single word is all too firm.]
No one deserves that.
[And a Merchant like that? He could not be suffered to exist in his father's lands.]
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You don't have to call me your husband, if you don't want. Or do kissing. I don't mind.
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I won't hurt you or your family. I swear it. And-
[ He purses his lips, trying to think of something that might, might come close to convincing Dracula. ]
-if he has orders, I'll follow them. So long as you don't disagree with them.
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Alucard tilts his head, much like a dog does. He's missed something. He's also tired. And while it's good that Trevor won't raise a hand against Dracula it's...]
Please wait before you say anything else about this.
[His voice is soft. Pleading.]
We're trying something. I can't tell you about it, but it might impact everything you just said and--
[God.
Words are hard.]
I'm sorry, can I just be not-human for a little bit?