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Alucard \\ Adrian F. Ţepeş ([personal profile] cryptsleeper) wrote2022-04-15 07:15 pm
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maybe it's not cannibalism if they're technically a different species.

[personal profile] gynvael 2024-04-16 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ Is this what he wants to be doing? No. Is it what he's doing regardless? Regrettably, yes. A part of him wishes Alucard had not told him of this potential solution if only because now that he knows, he cannot refuse to try. Something, eventually, has to work.

He does not know how long he can let Ciri believe she will never be remembered. He wants to fix this. For her, if nothing else, but...for himself, too. He hates how much his life—spanning centuries—has shrunk to a handful of moments that make up barely decades, years.

Naturally, Alucard being Alucard insists on this being a significantly greater ordeal than simply boiling some fucking bone in water and swallowing a cup. Geralt intended this to be, at best, an hour or two. Instead, it's taken twice as long, and he has alternated between napping and meditating for all four of those hours. Not until he hears his name does he crack open an eye.

Geralt sits up with a grunt. ]
You're sure they won't return in a flood?

[ This is his main concern. What glimpse of his memories have returned, he understands they are...unpleasant. He is not interested in a "cure" that will only drive him to madness. ]
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[personal profile] ancunin 2024-04-16 06:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ Once upon a time, in a life that he lost long before he came here, Astarion had been born a high elf. He would have lived many centuries already, had he not been turned before he'd even reached a half century in age. He had known, very early on in his undead life, that immortality could be a curse. Especially when you had no control over your own future.

He had, perhaps, let some of his newfound power and freedom go to his head. Some. But then - why shouldn't he have let it?

Four months is not nearly enough time for him to accept his fault in the matter. The remains of his once majestic domain have only just stopped smoldering where they crashed into the surface of Horizon.

He has, actually, moved in these four months. Once to visit the site, where poisonous flowers immediately sprang from the wake of his steps. Once again he left to check on them out of boredom, and had found a festering meadow. ]


You hardly need me to move for that. [ he replies with a slight scowl, now currently lounging on the bed. The point is that Alucard could change the sheets if he very well wanted to with only a thought.

There's a wine bottle filled with blood on the little nightstand. The ceaseless ache left him centuries ago, but he still craves the taste - even here, where he hardly has the same physical restrictions as he once did. ]
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[personal profile] ancunin 2024-04-17 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Alucard is, as usual, correct in his read. On top of that, Astarion had yet to make apologies for any of the collateral damage he's caused - let alone acknowledge that such a thing may or may not have occurred multiple times in the centuries long maelstrom that was his wrecked marriage.

He does, after a long moment and a deep sigh, sit up - although he does not get out of bed just yet. There's something performative about his protests and his petulance, as though he going through the motions of his own behaviors out of habit, but Alucard might sense a disconnect. A lack of commitment. Or, worse, a lack of direction - because were he to allow himself to actually get up and do something about the way he's been thrown between fits of rage and sinking into despondency, he might actually lash out and do intentional damage somewhere. Not to Alucard, who could handle him in his violence, but to someone or somewhere that might not bear a raging god without breaking. ]


I suppose. [ he finally answers, eyeing his put upon friend and squashing a very sudden and unwanted wave of guilt. He didn't force himself into Alucard's space, and he's followed his 'rules'. He has no reason to feel guilty. Instead, he lets mockery slip into his tone. ]

What shall it be - are we to have a picnic, then?
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[personal profile] ancunin 2024-04-19 09:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He frowns at the offer a soup, and then his nose wrinkles at the insult that follows. Normally it might get a rise out of him, as he had only just seemed quite prickly and ready for banter a moment earlier, but for some reason those words just seem to suck all the air out of him, his tone defeated. Not despondent, but slightly pained. ]

Oh - what does it even matter now.

[ Astarion pulls the sheets around himself like a cocoon, shoulders slouched. Picnic or soup, it doesn't matter very much - does it? Nothing in Horizon matters. This entire space is their playground - and yet, it's been at least a century since any of his antics have felt fulfilling, here or in the Material Realm of Abraxas.

He laughs to himself, very abruptly and with little humor. ]


Maybe I ought to take a turn at appearing as some sewer-dwelling wretch for a decade or two. The change might be refreshing...
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[personal profile] ancunin 2024-04-20 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
... you're much too accommodating, you know. It's maddening.

[ Maddening instead of infuriating, as he might've once said. In the back of his mind he knows he doesn't deserve loyalty like this. He grimaces, red eyes following Alucard's descent to floor seating.

The talk of sewers unfortunately stirs the dust off other memories, those now beginning to fade in the past century or so. In the first two centuries after he'd been turned he had found the loss of important details of his past upsetting. Now, he finds relief in not being able to recall the face of the monster the turned him, his name long forgotten. Even the scars on his back have begun to fade over time, the ugly, raised lines that mark him slightly less pronounced than they once were. Maybe in another few centuries they'll vanish all together.

He scowls to himself.]


You must think I'm pathetic. Or simply being dramatic. Histrionic.

[ And over what? A rejection. From someone he feels nothing for anymore, who he hasn't felt anything for in decades. It's hard to remember what even brought the two of them together in the first place, or why he feels so gutted. ]
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-04-20 06:47 am (UTC)(link)
To be fair, you've never been very good with time.

[The flaws of being immortal. Being immortal forever, even! Jaskier can't even imagine. It's hardly a unique trait nowadays; some of the other gods are practically nigh-impossible to speak to, with how detached, or pretentious, or depressing they are.

Alucard is a lovely, familiar presence. Steady. There's something about him that, in all its irony, makes it easier to feel human. A permanent piece placed into this world. Jaskier's hand skirts over tall, carefully shaped bushes, springing bright pink flowers which follow them with their sweet scent.]
It's about to be early spring. Oh, they're going to start seeding all their fields soon! It's my busiest season.

[So many Echoes that ring and rattle about in his head. Wishes for seeds, for flourishing crops, for sunny days, for vibrate loves, for big cocks -- they're all a bit funny, when you think about it.

But this park was his before he was himself. It holds a piece of his soul, he thinks. A piece he has not had for ages.]
You could come with me this year. I can't say it's always fun, but it is entertaining. I like making clever little designs in the corn once it grows to confuse them. They never see it as art, though! Just some sort of... prophecy, or something. It's never been rightfully appreciated.

[But he keeps doing it, because it's fun.]
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feel free to skip ahead when needed!

[personal profile] ancunin 2024-04-22 03:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He barks out a short, humorless laugh as confirmation to the first part, taking a moment to study Alucard's features when the dhampir's eyes close. As for the rest, as for his grieving -

A sudden, terrible impulse toward violence stirs within him. He has spent a good part of the past few centuries giving in to that impulse without care, and sometimes needing little cause. Better to destroy what could betray you than give it the chance to do harm. Perhaps that's what went wrong with him and his lovely wife. They couldn't kill one another, but they couldn't survive each other either.

He imagines his fist closing around Alucard's throat, sharpened nails digging in the second before he tears into that lovely, pale skin with his teeth. The dhampir had once been able to easily overpower him. Now? Astarion suspects the ascension has put them on a more even playing field.

But those thoughts are followed by a sudden, thick revulsion that rises in his throat like bile. ]


Too pretty a throat to ruin, unfortunately. [ he drawls, though there's a tension across his form now, mostly hidden beneath the blankets.

Sulking again, he throws them over his head and lies down again, curling up on himself. His voice is muffled beneath the thick fabric. ]


You must have better things to do. Go. I'll have your soup later.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-04-24 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
Well, if you ceased taking so many...

[It's an ages-old argument, and one Jaskier really hasn't a leg to stand on anymore when he's taken a few of his own. Sometimes the echoes are too loud. Sometimes he feels himself splitting apart; changing into something he wishes not to be.

Sometimes rest is the only thing he craves.

Jaskier's nose wrinkles.]
It's not an audience of one, it's an audience of thirty! You know I still don't like it. Didn't you lose a kidney or something when one of them got lost? Suppose it found its way back... though you probably don't need both kidneys at this point.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-04-25 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
I can't fit into a cactus! Not like this. Besides, I told you, during your last sleep, I tried your bit. Sleeping in one. It wasn't the worst.

[It goes a bit hand-in-hand with his desert owl form, which has long been one of his favorites. Samll, compact, with an easily manageable appetite and very little need to do anything but flutter around, sleep, and eat bugs.

He cannot describe why they're so particularly delectable when one has a beak.]


Ciri wouldn't help you for free. [He smiles at Alucard's adorable little hmph.] Fine, you can come! As bats! I'll allow it. And we'll have a plague of moths or something to enjoy afterwards.

[As bat and bird. At this point, Jaskier has no reservations about eating just about anything.]
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-04-27 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jaskier laughs and pushes back. Their joys are often so small, but seem all the more precious for it. (Has he not, already, been granted the greatest joy of all? He has as much time as he wishes with those he loves. And perhaps he likes to spend some of that time bullying Alucard.)

Jaskier blows through his lips in disbelief. "Very good" at "not being smug." Why, it's like asking a tiger to not show its stripes.]


And why shouldn't it be? I daresay we've done many more things more sinful than a date of moth plagues. Which we should definitely repeat, you know.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-04-30 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't argue the point about the owl now that he's perfect aware of how adorable he is in every form. Every bird he's taken flight as, all down to the very fluffy paws he has as a gryphon... even with the talons.

He's a whole package, even as a god.]


Dickish, you say? That's funny, considering what I was actually referencing... [He wiggles his brows. No, not sinful. He and Nadine have the same hangup over that word. Or did, at least. He has the feeling they did.

Look, he's only saying he's had fun. Every time.]


Is this? Looking upon the vestiges of the men we used to be? It's certainly romantic, in a grim way. [He's amused as he says it, though, leading the way to this: the monument in the middle of it all. Still standing against all odds, the magic in it more powerful than ever.] I don't think the history books even remember what it was for.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-05-05 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
Lower than your balls, you mean?

[He was asking for it! And Jaskier can take his friend throwing him into a wall, if need be. He survives things very well, thank you, and the proof of that is in his grin, which is unapologetic.

So many years have earned him the rights to be a bastard.

The you used to strikes Jaskier like a physical hit -- stronger than being thrown into a wall, and for a moment, his grin is gone. Completely. It isn't Alucard's fault -- he's a bastard, too, but in a very different way -- but it's a sharp reminder is all.]


So have I. But there isn't a man alive who can resists the siren call of power forever. [He sighs. Well, his little ball joke has lost its luster. Sometimes being around Adrian is akin to being assaulted with ice-cold water, several times over.] You can't mean to say that after all this time, you still haven't forgotten some things.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-05-08 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
I've never been a straight ball man myself, to be fair. Who knows if I'll be an honest judge?

[This is truly them now: a back and forth that has no real meaning nor importance. Why care about every second spent when you know you have so many ahead of? A number so large that, to him, it may as well be infinite? He can't allow himself to wallow for too long; in those moments, he begins to feel something strange inside him. An alien. And the alien thing is him, his mind, his thoughts... dissipating into an infinite swell of time.

Jaskier stops in front of their memorial, with Alucard's hand holding his, squeezing it. Another anchor: the people who have entered eternity with him, or that he followed after.]
You're right. I'd never let you hear the end of it.

[After this long, this memorial still feels like his, partly; their magic weaves in it, stronger than ever. He cannot recall a single face that this memorial was meant to stand for... but he does remember what caused them to build it in the first place. That deep, overwhelming sorrow.

It's rare the sunrays in him ever fade; over time, perhaps he's begun to fear them even more than he used to.]
You're the only one who understands we've never stopped working.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-05-12 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[To be fair, Jaskier lets him have it. His chest has always been a wonderful feature, even if some days he cannot even recall where or when that scar happened; it is as much a part of Alucard as his hair and witty comebacks.

They lean together in that perfect way where the other's body balances them. Perhaps if Jaskier wasn't associated with so many of the other Summoned, they would have their whole own following: a pair of art gods that leave memorials to mortals in their wake. That reminds them of how mortal they are, but how their momentary lives have meaning.

Even if he should die tomorrow or live another 800 years, he will always believe that.]


I do think it worth lionizing. Is that not what all the tales of immortals always warned? They grow bored with life. With mortal existence. They become old and older and more rotten in their core. But you... you've really remained the same. I don't think a few decades of knowing you're an immortal truly prepared you for that.

[Sometimes he still laughs about it. Technically, even now, Jaskier is older than him. Jaskier turns into him, drawing Alucard closer, and kisses him with a firm press to his lips.] Perhaps I can admit you've aided me in not becoming a complete bastard of an immortal, too.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-05-13 06:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Maybe. It could be, considering what Jaskier remembers hearing of them. (Though the idea of Alucard being "good at being old" is absolutely laughable. He's so comedic, especially when he isn't trying to be.)]

The times I've wanted to smite have been very low in number. [He insists. A musician who wrote a mocking ballad about him. The writer who dissected his lyrics for a study in the university, calling them "trite" and "too punny."

The luteist who changed the words in The Fishmonger's Daughter. He didn't even like that song, but it was the principle of the thing.

Jaskier takes that offering, flicking a tongue as a tease against a fang. He knows well, after all this time, how to move around them. And they still invoke a flare of heat in him.]


As I shall always be. And when the Singularity draws the last drop of life out of the universe, I'll make sure you perish first, so that you should never be without me.
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-05-14 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
Ouch. Now you're being a bit mean.

[The truth hurts, unfortunately; being immortal has hardly done much to give him the sort of armor without its chinks, in which perfectly placed darts of criticism can easily slide inside and hurt his heart.

Still true.

Well.

He laughs, and kisses him again.]
I knew you had it in you to say exactly what I wished to hear. [Love has always comes easy, but never this long. That it has endured is testament to its unyielding strength.] Now, before you distract me with your sexy sincerity, shall we go check on the Hall next?
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[personal profile] cointosser 2024-05-19 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
Oh? [His smile is much more knowing, curled at the edges. The grassy areas, after this conversation? Clearly he's asking for more than just a bit of skygazing. A roll in the grass, even -- and when one is so associated with nature, one hardly worries about a bit of dirt and grass stains.]

The Hall's never gone anywhere.

[He says it as a point of pride, squeezing Alucard's hand tightly as he steals another kiss. No, neither are they -- not with an infinite amount of time ahead of them, now that death is hardly an option.]

Come. Time waits for no one, but I won't wait for long, either.